Inside of me, there's this feeling that's been niggling at me
for several months the whispers have gotten more frequent
and today, I realized what it was saying to me...
Clear all the crap out of my head, my ego, my mind
so that no matter what happens
no matter what happens
I can be at Peace, be Happy, be Calm
No matter what.
Be Peace, Be Happy, Be Calm.
I always recall the story of the Tibetan monk
who said "I am sad when I am unable to love the Chinese guards that imprison me".
That feeling of always being able to see the positive inspite of what appears to be so many negatives...
that's what I want to attain.
And, I see it more and more
Each experience with someone or something
For instance, that person who seems to be dr. jekyl and mr hyde.
Friendly one second, then jabbing at me w/ their words the next.
Nowadays, I more easily can take it *Not* personally
I see that person and their inner struggle as not having anything to do w/ me.
Understanding that the person is internally battling a war inside her own head
which she tries to play out w/ me
I do Not engage
as it has nothing to do with me...
Not in my world.
Each experience with the outer world
is a constant maintaining of My inner harmony,
And, that's the way I am more easily seeing minute to minute
encounters...as tests to help me maintain inner peace.
Like sparring w/ a boxing partner...jab dodge jab dodge
bounce bounce shuffle shuffle. And if I get punched,
I am more easily able to shake it off and move on.
I am more agile, more clear, more free.
I want to reach a point that if the world around me
was crumbling down
that I would remain calm, be at peace, and still see the
beauty within and around me.
Happy no matter what.
Peace out my fellow "I just wanna be Happy" friends...Peace out.